Nonesense Sentiment (Torn-Apart)

It had been quite so long since I started feeling this; a pain brought by something I never thought would come to an end. I felt it like a knife stabbing my entire body. I felt so restless and I hadn’t stopped counting my sleepless nights and it seemed to me like I wouldn’t stop counting for the rest of my life.
I was over him or so I thought I was. It was never easy and I’d been spending my time searching for an escape through which I would not feel the pain. I needed somebody who would listen and would perfectly understand how I feel. But I think that somebody does not exist.
The pain was so intense. And there were times I didn’t know how would I had to express it when tears wouldn’t be enough. Sometimes I just had to burst everything out into laughing. Sounds so crazy and stupid but I had no choice. I had to do everything to lessen the pain or it would eat me up entirely.
“Cherish the pain,
Then let it just pass you by…
That’s the only way you’ll survive the cruelty of love.”

"I want him back. Not because I love him, not because I care for him but because I am used to him. And I never want to part from anything."
-Agnes Dempster- Madness of a Seduced Woman

It’s absurd how people would just realize what they had lost until they experience the agony of regret. We chose and we decide and whatever lives we have today are always a part of our destiny.We should stop on relying to our past for too long, because if we do we'll miss the chance for change and growth. Life is a constant cycle of coming and leaving. People come and intrude our lives for a while then they will leave. Being left behind by the people we had learned to treasure might hurt but not for so long because there’s nothing time can’t heal.